Thursday, July 26, 2012
Surprisingly OK, I think...
His email was funny, as always. I love the stories he tells about Brit. I feel like I know a little bit more about her life every time I read an email he sends.
I wish I could share the emails with all of you. Because if I did, I think any person who would read the them would assume we are all best of friends. The emails are casual, kind, and offer a small picture into Brit's life. Every email ends with Love, and he signs all of their names (even the babies).
It is so strange to me. To get these kind emails that by all indications seem to show that our relationship is good, healthy and interactive in some way.
The same is true when I am at the grocery store and I run into Brit's dad (which has happened probably 5 different times with me, and probably 3 times with BF). We stand there, chat, and never would you guess that there would be any unresolved issues between us.
There is so much more that I could expound upon here with regard to this strange dynamic, but that would not be my original point for this post.
Today I just wanted to post that I got the email, read it, saw the pictures and was able to move on, without any tears. I didn't get t lump in my throat. I simply read the email, enjoyed it, and moved on to the next thing.
THIS IS A BIG DEAL.
It seems that while I don't like it, I have gotten to some level of acceptance of where this all stands right now. I suppose that is a good thing.
So why does just typing that, make me cry?...
Maybe I'm not as OK as I think.