Not too much to report today. Yesterday was my birthday and for some reason I thought maybe Brit's mom would send an email or a note. That didn't happen. Actually, I take that back. She did send an email reply to one I sent her on Monday about a mutual acquaintance of ours whose husband had a brain tumor removed. She thanked me for the update. And to be honest, it was a nice light hearted email. Just a couple of sentences, but I figure any correspondence from her is better than none.
I try to keep my interactions with Brit's mom light hearted and non-chalant. I know that there is a huge white elephant that stands between the two of us and meaningful conversation. I try not to dwell on the conversations that we had prior to Brit's birth about how we would always be friends. I know things change. I just wish they hadn't.
So now I wait for my January email update with pictures. I am so very glad I get that. So many birthmothers don't. So as sorry as I feel for myself and how our relationship hasn't developed like I thought it would, I do remember that I am still very fortunate to have what I do get.