Wednesday, July 27, 2011
I can still be happy
Now 16 months after Brit was born, I am finally feeling like I can allow myself some moments of joy. I can do things and not immediately remember that I am a birthmother. Now the moments are fleeting, but at least I am having them.
Of course I never ever forget about Brit, just like I don't forget about my parented children. But little by little I am allowing myself to move forward with my life, in spite of the pain.
I had a first date last night and had a wonderful evening. Thankfully he is someone I have known casually for a couple of years and he knows my story. Maybe not in its entirety, but he knows I had a child last year and he knows she was adopted.
So I didn't feel like I had to hide anything. Which in itself is freeing.